I breeze through the cars of bart, pressing my weight against the doors as I force them open, intent on getting to the car that stops right in front of the escalator at 16th and mission. As I’m walking down the isle, I hear a hesitant voice: ‘Karen?’. I quickly turn around to see Malcolm. Yes, Malcolm. I didn’t even know he was in California. We chatted for a while. He is doing well, going where he pleases still, living in SF and working for some software company. It was such a pleasant surprise to see him.

A few weeks ago I’m standing in a crowded bart car, and I when I look up from my book, I steal a glance of the guy with the drum between his knees. He was in all black and had on a bowler hat. Cute. When I look up again, he is staring straight at me. I smile and hold his gaze. He asks me, “Can I give you a flier?” “Sure!”. He reaches into his breast pocket and pulls out an orange slip of paper. As I prepare to exit he says, “I really like your style.” Awwww…. The flier says ‘Spooky 1 man band, the Makeout Room, Oct 29″. I unfortunately didn’t make the show, but today dev was painfully slow, so I decided to look him up. The first hit was (of course) a tribe post. Looking at his profile I find that he is friends with Diva and Elke. I love tribe. I wonder if I should send him a message…

Ok, so I was thoroughly impressed by this demonstration.

http://ted.com/tedtalks/tedtalksplayer.cfm?key=j_han&flashEnabled=1

(it’s a video showing what is likely the next step in human-computer interaction. The multipoint mesh control is cool. It’s SO FAST. Crazy hardcore math that I don’t understand is sexy.)

Ok, so I was thoroughly impressed by this demonstration.

http://ted.com/tedtalks/tedtalksplayer.cfm?key=j_han&flashEnabled=1

(it’s a video showing what is likely the next step in human-computer interaction. The multipoint mesh control is cool. It’s SO FAST. Crazy hardcore math that I don’t understand is sexy.)


Dennis and I spent hours making this movie. It was so much fun. The audio editing software Dennis used to make the track is pretty slick, so I’ll probably be experimenting with it more in the future. I have slowly come to realize that I have a lot of creative energy and when I don’t do something with it I get all grumpy.

Here’s the other movie about ddolls. It’s really interesting to be placed in front of a camera and told to talk. It actually makes me uncomfortable. I usually prefer to be on the other side of the camera, though I may continue this experiment of filming myself speak. I like trying new things, especially if they make me feel awkward.

Lately I’ve been thinking about self-deprecation (it started when ephermata pointed me to the Goffman paper, and then I read some other things including a paper about other people’s opinions influencing your perception of yourself). In greek myth heroes proclaim their might and valor, whereas we prefer our modern heroes humble and modest. With increased wealth our society has become ‘nicer’. When you’re not worried about where you’re going to sleep tomorrow, you have more energy to devote to helping that old lady across the street. When a person calls himself an loser, I am likely to disagree and highlight why he is not a loser. Self deprecation is ‘useful’ because it makes people less likely to be mean to you. Everyone is insecure about something so perhaps we empathize with the dejection that often comes with failure. We don’t like to kick people while they’re down (unless it’s deserved). We do, however, like to kick arrogant people when they fall. The punishment, then, is for arrogance and not for failing.

Here’s the other movie about ddolls. It’s really interesting to be placed in front of a camera and told to talk. It actually makes me uncomfortable. I usually prefer to be on the other side of the camera, though I may continue this experiment of filming myself speak. I like trying new things, especially if they make me feel awkward.

Lately I’ve been thinking about self-deprecation (it started when ephermata pointed me to the Goffman paper, and then I read some other things including a paper about other people’s opinions influencing your perception of yourself). In greek myth heroes proclaim their might and valor, whereas we prefer our modern heroes humble and modest. With increased wealth our society has become ‘nicer’. When you’re not worried about where you’re going to sleep tomorrow, you have more energy to devote to helping that old lady across the street. When a person calls himself an loser, I am likely to disagree and highlight why he is not a loser. Self deprecation is ‘useful’ because it makes people less likely to be mean to you. Everyone is insecure about something so perhaps we empathize with the dejection that often comes with failure. We don’t like to kick people while they’re down (unless it’s deserved). We do, however, like to kick arrogant people when they fall. The punishment, then, is for arrogance and not for failing.

ddolls movie
This is the first of 2 that I plan on making. It consists of highlights of the show. My second movie is gonna be more about me and clips from when Amy and I were on stage singing.

Sometime I consider buying a pro account so I can embed my movies in here, but then people on jumpcut could find my lj. I like keeping things semi-separate.

at gamh I don’t think in can go. fuck. Lovemakers show are so much fun. It will be almost impossible to get out of the house on new year’s eve, though.

o, and sonic living is sweet (and from oakland!). It’s a site that imports all the artists from your itunes list (or you can type in your own list) and then gives you a calendar view of when they’re playing in your area. O yes, and it also will pull things from your last.fm list.

anyone want to go with me to less than jake tomorrow?
I think I’m gonna get tix to mates of state too. (“I can’t wait to saayyeee all the things, that make you better!” Their music is so cute.)

I am so FUCKING excited about the show and afterparty tonight I think I’m gonna explode into tiny pieces of light. The only thing keeping me together is that it would be really hard to sweep me all up in time for the show.

I have some ideas for the movie I’m gonna make around the event. On a side note, it’s kinda weird working for a video company insofar as I’ve become really into video documenting things I have done. It tends to shift my focus and mentality. I try to keep a cap on the amount of footage I take since it’s difficult to capture the experience as well as live it, and I get annoyed when other people make me pose for a zillion pictures. It makes me wonder what it would be like to be famous or grow up as a child of a famous person. Then I think about what personality is displayed on camera. Is it ‘real’? What about someone like lonelygirl15? People were so upset when she was discovered as a ‘fake’. How is an actress portraying the life of a teenager (with the usual hope, fear, angst) different from a teenager portraying her life? I think I need more philosophical discussion in my life. I don’t have enough people to talk to about random thoughts like this.

I haven’t posted my pics on flickr yet, but here’s a movie.

(click on it to watch)

btw, jumpcut got sold to yahoo.

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