I am so FUCKING excited about the show and afterparty tonight I think I’m gonna explode into tiny pieces of light. The only thing keeping me together is that it would be really hard to sweep me all up in time for the show.
I have some ideas for the movie I’m gonna make around the event. On a side note, it’s kinda weird working for a video company insofar as I’ve become really into video documenting things I have done. It tends to shift my focus and mentality. I try to keep a cap on the amount of footage I take since it’s difficult to capture the experience as well as live it, and I get annoyed when other people make me pose for a zillion pictures. It makes me wonder what it would be like to be famous or grow up as a child of a famous person. Then I think about what personality is displayed on camera. Is it ‘real’? What about someone like lonelygirl15? People were so upset when she was discovered as a ‘fake’. How is an actress portraying the life of a teenager (with the usual hope, fear, angst) different from a teenager portraying her life? I think I need more philosophical discussion in my life. I don’t have enough people to talk to about random thoughts like this.